Below are the 3 most recent journal entries recorded in bluefox_chan's InsaneJournal:

Wednesday, April 23rd, 2008
3:16 am	Thoughts on my birthday Being 19 isnt really all that exciting. every year i work myself into a lather(the non rabid version of course) and then it passes with little to no fanfare, i can honestly say i dont want alot of drama but idk, just seems like im missing something. I just got back (Last Thursday) from going out of town to visit my aunt. I really do love her but she drove me batty. While i did finally manage to get my tongue pierced, everything else was mostly annoying. My cousin T took me shopping and then clubbing. I really wish i didnt go. it was more pain than it was worth. im glad i got to hang with T, but i spent like 200 bucks on bullshit which pisses me off. i really didnt what to go clubbing and on top of that, i had to pay 20 at the door and the club was gay! while im not exactly the life of the party, that club really sucked. i can honestly say i would have preferred to stay how and dress up a barbie or 15 (and i fucking LOATHE Barbies!) i really cant complain because i didnt speak up, but.. GAH! just thinking about the wasted money makes my head hurt! i cant for the life of me figure out why people had fun. i have to admit tho. Running a nightclub seems like a cool job. Another problem i seem to have aquired is, i cant seem to be motivated my and career or profession enough to what to do it more than 2 months tops. Im well aware of the fact than im not a very motived person. on top of that i procrastinate too much to be healthy.(i havent updated my site for that very reason) for some reason it just feels like im waiting for something. i realize logically that waiting around isnt going to get me anywhere but old habits die hard. the only thing i have any interst in right now is website design. i think ill try to get into college for it next year. but for now i what to get a steady. i can never seem to get steady enough where it doesnt bother me. i really wish i was like those people who just know. they know what they want and dont hestitate. they have known for year that they what to do and they do it. to have something that your good at its really an amazing feeling. Blah ive managed to make myself depressed! On my birthday no less! For shame... Anyways, for the people who read through all of this. What's ur goals? what is that thing your the best at and you want to do it everyday? What's ur dream job even? Toodles! Bluefox (Comment on this)
Wednesday, March 26th, 2008
12:43 pm	I finally got around to making an AMV! Yes i know it seems a little weird to announce this but you suck so its ok! If you what to check it out here it is! What you think? I adore it and i managed to not be completely sick of the song i used! As you can tell im uber happy about that! Toodles! Bluefox (X-posted at my Livejournal) Current Mood: chipper Current Music: Voldemort Fangirl by The Parselmouths (Comment on this)
Saturday, February 16th, 2008
11:28 pm	Randomness (With Pinapple Flavoring!) Since Valentine's Week(also know as the 3rd most soul sucking holiday) is officially over, i think its safe to talk about it. I really need to update my fics this weekend. My Bleach fanfic hasnt been updated in like a year in a half(which is basically procrastination on my part). I really hate that i feel out of the fandom, it doesnt really made me motivated to write anything for a fandom i havent been into since '05. In other fan-related news, i wonder how anyone could consider it a good thing to be famous, im not saying that its a bad thing to want to be famous or anything but i just dont understand how being hounded over having my face on tv is a good thing. i guess millions of dollars are helpful for smiling into the camera... i suppose when you are good at what you do, the stalking of the paparazzi seems meaning less because you are doing what you love. blah, just thinking about it makes dizzy! in other news, i realized none of the tv shows and movie on my iPod are in english! I have the best selection of anime on it known to man! Card Captor Sakura is the best thing to watch while tuning out others! In other news, does anyone know how old Will Smith is? I swear, Jada has to be the luckiest female ever lol -Bluefox Current Mood: blah Current Music: No Doubt- It's My Life (1 Comment |Comment on this)